So this is it, the one thing no one truly gets. The reason behind all the half-hearted complains. I just can’t stand it. I can’t risk letting anyone ever getting this close again. Because I barely survived it once and it took everything I had to do so. This is the truth behind all the unfinished stories: They are all about you. And when it comes to you I just can’t lie.
It’s safe to fall in love with a ghost. Or an idea. Or even a dream. Because nothing will ever happen with it – the impossible will always be safe. You were the only impossibility I’ve let into my life. And you took my heart with you when you left. I will stop hurting one day. I guess, eventually someday. Till then I fall for all the wrong ones and watch them take off into their own private happy ending without me.
I could’ve been perfect for him – in another life maybe. In a life where I wasn’t broken and still had the courage left to stop lying. When it comes to you I haven’t been telling the truth in a very long time. It’s why all friendships and relationships eventually fall apart. Or why I make up stories I can’t finish. Or why I create conversations talking to myself like a true lunatic. But here is one truth that never changes: I miss you. Damn it, I miss you so fucking much it even hurts to think of your name.
So here we go: Happy birthday princess.
You got 30 first!
Hello,
you can’t even imagine how much truth are in your words. Especially when you mention that ‘falling in love with a ghost. Or an idea.Or even a dream.’ I have been doing that mistake, if it was a mistake, for such a long time. I have been in love with a woman, I still am, with whom I never had more than a dream. I lied to her so many times, I hurt her, but we could hardly stop dreaming about a better life.
If I have learned one thing during that time, it is that one lie can destroy a whole relationship built of trust.
Even though I dont know you, I wish you all the best for your 30 first birthday, some days late 🙂